I am pissed off. my granfather die march 10, an di am hurting, mainly because my life its so messed up that i couldn't visit my home contry for about 3 year, and yes i wanted to, many many times i wanted to leave and just go be with my family, but like in the real world happen responsabilities, however, my aunt did got teh change to go home with her family multiple times, i don't mean to be rude, but her life its way easier than mines, she brought a house her house hold its not messed up like mines... and she has the nerves to tell me when i am talking to my cousin about how hurt i am, that maybe i wouldn't be this hurt if i woul've gone home a tleast one. i wanted , I really freaking wanted to, don't you understand that the fact that i didn't got to say goodbye its the thing that hurts me the most? and why are you rubbin it in! you are supposse to be supportive, not destructive.
those who knows me, know how messed up my life is, how i work practically 24/7 with a low income, and how my paresnt still need most of my income to surviive. now tell me with this am i allow to take a vacation? becase i feel like if i dare do, my family here would fall appart and my debt will grow within thiose 2 weeks, i can't affor stop working for a weekend, less stop for a whole week, how much i wanted to, how much i needed to, how much i cried because i couldn't.
it doesn't help me that my mother tell my aunt many many lies, many thing on how we are doing great when we are not. why do you lie? I would never understand.
but my point overall, its.. why you don't understand that your words hurt me, known that this is the main reason why i'm huirt the most? why rub it in?
Listening to: frozen-let it go- Japanesse/English version
Reading: Princess Jellifish- manga
Watching: "Heaven´s lost property"
Eating: Panda Express
Drinking: Coca cola